Yes, you read the title correctly. Our family is going to be getting a little bigger. And no, I’m not pregnant.
Adoption has always laid heavily on my heart. As long as I can remember it has beenthere. Lying deep inside. Growing. Traveling around the world with street kids in each destination. And the hubs and I always threw the idea around. “Not now. Time isn’t right.” “Not now. We’re moving.” “Not now, xyz.” You fill in the blank, we probably have said it.
And then, in late August of 2012 a dear friend of mine called me up – knowing about my inner longing for adoption and ties to Uganda – and said, “Ash, you MUST read Kisses from Katie: A Story of Relentless Love and Redemption. It’ll just grab your heartstrings.” So, a few days later I picked it up. And it did.
I remember wiping tears…ah who am I kidding, snot off of my face as I wept about this young girl moving from a cushy affluent suburban life to Uganda. And as if serving others there wasn’t enough, she adopted a GI-NOR-MOUS amount of girls and became their mommy. She didn’t fret the birth order of the girls she adopted. She didn’t say, “not today, I’m too busy with my own agenda.” She simply extended her hands. Loved them. Told them they are wanted. They are home. They’re hers. More importantly, they are HIS!
It was a cool September day, and I sauntered down to our office and sat in a chair. “What is it?” Hernan questioned. I read him this from Kisses from Katie: “The truth is that the 143 million orphaned children and the 11 million who starve to death or die from preventable diseases and the 8.5 million who work as child slaves, prostitutes, or under other horrific conditions and the 2.3 million who live with HIV add up to 164.8 million needy children. And though at first glance that looks like a big number, 2.1 billion people on this earth proclaim to be Christians. The truth is that if only 8 percent of the Christians would care for one more child, there would not be any statistics left.” MIND BLOWING. I immediately thought of the quote by Abigail Adams, “We have too many high-sounding words, and too few actions that correspond with them.” Me = GUILTY. And then I said it, “WE need to care for a child. Not just talk about it anymore, but actually leap off the cliff. Dive in. Adopt.”
And then he asked me, “Yeah, we should. But aren’t you scared?”
“Yes. I am. Excited and slightly terrified on so many levels. Terrified of our inadequacies as parents. Terrified of opening our home to new struggles. Terrified of getting heart-broken. Terrified of everything. But the thought of little boys and girls all over the world curling up at night completely and utterly scared and alone, scared because they don’t have a mommy and daddy, scared because they don’t know where their next meal will come from, scared because they’ve never truly known love or had arms wrap around them; that is way more terrifying than any doubt I have about us adopting.”
Fast forward 1 year almost to the date, after much prayer, research, phone calls, and more prayer we’re adopting from Uganda! We couldn’t be more excited. AND, since according to statistics girls are often preferred in adoption to boys, we’re adopting a boy.
God’s timing in His Word couldn’t be more appropriate. I am currently deep in a Priscilla Shirer study of Gideon which completely shows God’s strength through an improbable candidate. Just. Like. Us. Even more, the amount of money we have to raise in a VERY short time and the paper work we have to do is well, overwhelming.
But of this I’m sure: OUR WEAKNESS = HIS STRENGTH
We rest on His promises that while everything won’t be rosy or easy, it WILL be worth it.
We are asking you to walk along side with us. Partner with us. We canNOT do this alone.
Thank you for walking with us through this journey.
With Much Love and Overwhelming Appreciation,
Hernan, Ashley, Zion & Zoe Miller